Switched to journal:)

Thought=> Act=> Habit=> Charac=> Destiny

If i wan to achieve smth once unthinkable, i got to start doing things i have never tried before.

Cya
Ziyan

These 2 days have been slack so far, but it is good to have such days where you can reflect your life and have a vision of what u want to achieve.

Then start planning. This is also easy. The worst part is the execution. Tell u man, i am so called a failure in doing things i plan, even till now(don't mention exams). Got to better wake up and nail these two years deep down with good memories.

I cant waste it. 19 days have passed and i have yet to do something significant or rather achieved.

70kg, driving license, makeover, and much more, what's to come is so amazing everytime i think but what's to be achieved is so uncertain. Execution requires determination and i need that badly.

Friends are bound to come and go, but i am so thankful my friend is just an arm length beside me :)

Cya
Ziyan

Army is over! The toughest part and funniest part i suppose :) Pesc E is sure a blessing yet a boredom at times.

Many stories esp nighttimes when i have problems coping. It is sure a miracle i manage to sleep through.

Shall talk more tmr. Planning shld start now since the slackiest two years are on its way in my life now.

Cya
Ziyan

Read sj blog, and decided to do e test. Lets see how true haha, u decide.

Your Existing Situation

1)Desires to be respected by others in order to gain their trust and support for his own personal gain.

Your Stress Sources

2)"Unfulfilled hopes have left him feeling uncertain and even a little fearful about the future. Needs to feel secure and avoid further disappointment; fears he will be looked over, lose his position, or lose respect. Has little hope that things will get better in time and his negative attitude leads him to place impossible demands on others or to compromise or bargain."

Your Restrained Characteristics

3)"Tries to participate and involve himself in things going on around him; however, avoids conflict and arguments to reduce stress and tension."
"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."
"Feels he is not receiving his fair share and is unable to rely on anyone for support or sympathy. He keeps his emotions bottled up, leaving him quick to take offense to small things. He tries to make the best of his situation."
"Emotionally withdrawn, feels forced to make compromises which makes emotional attachments difficult."

Your Desired Objective

4)"Is driven toward things that appeal to the senses, are rich, intense, and luxurious

Your Actual Problem

5)"Is disappointed and let down, feels there is no point in making new goals as they will leave him feeling the same way. Looking for friendly, pleasant relationships with others, who will further develop his intellect. He needs to escape into an environment which is stable and secure and will allow him to relax and feel more at peace."

LOL! okay i dono how true is this, but i am definitely not the right person. Perhaps choosing colours is not my type?

Conclusion: Applicable to sj perhaps because she's more decisive. I am not that but trying to. But whatever it is, the results are almost the opposite of me in many occasions. Kina funny.

Last post b4 army. Botak :) i am loving it haha. Accompanied w lenses will be even better? haha

Yea, know someone in army in advance of tmr camp named danny. Too bad xiong xiong cmpb freak!

Cya
Ziyan

Back in sg! The feeling of happiness has not really sunk in yet. Perhaps it is because i am going to army on 11 jan haha. That's good and bad. Social wise :). But it takes more effort to fight for yourself now than the past.

And i am hoping to wear contact someday, don't know if anyone will care, but i wan to exp haha. So is my character, moulding to someone better, less self conscious. Hard though haa

Anyway, just a random thought. When u sae smth hurtful or unpleasant to one's ears, do they always react nastily to you for the time being even if what you've done was unintentional? Personally, i think they will. Thats what human beings are flawed:) like what xl says haha.

Frens shld no longer be bound to a certain group of people.
Random thought, cos most often than not, time does the most dmg to friendships.

Cya
Ziyan

Am going to board the plane soon and be in singapore in about 1030pm. Srsly, i don't know what am i going to do or start in this year 2010 in sg aft i am back. So empty, so directionless...

Lost touch with the outside world, kinda a weird feeling to have

Seeing how ppl are enjoying themselves has seemed to make me tell myself to move on now

Cya
Ziyan

Sometimes, or rather recently, i began to ponder abt my life, what i really want to become in this current year 2010. Though i am in overseas now, i tend to think more haha.

I have decided on several things but it is kinda hard. Make decisions and stick with it even if it turns out bad. Learn from it and don repeat in future. That's just some. And i keep thinking of some relationship things hahah, dono why.

Some things just pop into my head and i try to brush it aside. It is so hard to stop imagining this kind of things when they are things that god creates so amazingly that it is so deep inside u and you cant remove it no matter how hard you try.

Think gonna make ppl surprised someday when we catch up:)

Hope that god will bless my prayers haha. Read someone's blog and this feeling just came back. Stupid

Cya
Ziyan